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yet another hierarchy of failure

My basic view is that almost everyone is a failure at most things, and those who aren't are still slaves to entropy, always just on the edge of falling down.

In these regards, it's sometimes hard to be an anthropologist about your own culture. I probably don't have many insightful things to say about all of the multifaceted ways to fail at being a philosophy professor. However, I've been to just enough (and not too many) "writer's conferences"* to have a sharp eye for the various ways in which writers fail. Here's the hierarchy from top to bottom.

1. Authored multiple best sellers- Almost certainly writes in a genre such as romance, urban fantasy, or police procedurals. Surprisingly, more likely than not to still have a day job s/he hates, just to handle the health insurance! If lucky, this is at a university. If doesn't have a day job, then still spends about twenty hours a week on "the business end" of writing.
2. Authored one best seller- Will it be repeated? Probably not.
3. Self published and built enough of a "platform" to move around 40,000 units. This has only happened a handful of times. . . The sharks circle and this person will find themselves elsewhere on this list in the next few years. 
4. Authored book(s) with good distribution, but last one not a best seller, so major press has passed on exercising option, back at the conference still pitching manuscripts with all the other mopes. Platform may or may not help. One person I met had three good novels published by three different presses and was still standing in line to do five minute pitches. It made me sad.
5. Unpublished but won one of the contests supported by the conference. The agents and editors might be effusive in praise. But while they say things like, "this is quite possibly the next Confederacy of Dunces," their behavior will in no way be that of someone who really believes that. I mean, no matter what your list focuses on, you would still publish the next Confederacy of Dunces. You just would. The problem is, the industry is very small, and if it's even remotely possible the author might be a best seller some day, people will be very, very nice on the surface. But the corollary of this is that the overwhelming majority of people who win these contests still never get anything published.
6. Unpublished but with no platform whastoever. You are a mope. Enjoy the buffet, alcohol, and life affirming talks.
7. Self published, but didn't move appreciably more than 10,000 units. You are lower than the mope. The stench of failure on you is nearly suffocating, and your inability to realize this embarasses everyone else.
8. Effing crazy person, almost always paranoid in subtley frightening ways. I don't know how agents do their job, listening to pitches by people like this all day.
9. Memoir writers. A cut below that boring guy at work who won't shut up about that "really weird dream" he had last night. And nobody cares about the fact that your memoir is "Eat, Pray, Love meets X." And the contest to see who has the most effed up childhood is unseemly at this point. And stop titling books "The So and So's Daughter." It's horrible.

I won't divulge where I am in this hierarchy, other than to note that nothing I've written has yet been a best seller. On the flip side though, I don't write memoirs. That's worth something at least.

[Notes:

*writer's conference = hundreds of people drinking themselves silly in between (a) futile attempts to pitch manuscripts to a handful of agents and (b) new agey talks that fail to fortify the alcohol's wondrous despair blocking power.]

Things to do if you want to live longer

Nice Daily Beast article HERE. They didn't mention anything about driving, which as the number one killer of people in their teens and twenties, has one of the biggest impact on death rates. Anyhow, here are the things they do list, with the percentage effect on your chance of being dead within 20 years.

There's some interesting philosophy here. Given how literally toxic getting laid off is (you are 15-20% more likely to die within twenty years if you are laid off), shouldn't this be reflected in criminal proceedings against people whose criminal behavior results in lots of other people losing jobs?

Also, lots of these things effect men and women differently. For example, being Mormon is much better for male mortality rates than for women. Should this inform feminist critiques of Mormonism? More strikingly is the effect of marrying a spouse more than 7 years younger than you (which decreases mortality for men and increases it for women).

Also, it is really important not to confuse correlations with causation. For example, a lot of the sleep data is probably the result of the fact that people who sleep too much are likely to be sleeping off hangovers. So there is a common cause for sleeping too much and increased mortality, rather than sleeping too much causing increased mortality. I strongly suspect the optimist/pessimist thing is the same thing. If a large enough percentage of the pessimists and optimists are being rational, then whatever is causing the pessimism and optimism is whatever is causing decreased and increased mortality rates. This being said, I'm going to express all of the following as if they were causal, because it's more fun that way.

1. Don't get laid off: +15-20%.
2. Get and stay married: +20%.
3. If you are a married woman, not marrying someone over seven years younger than you: +20%; if you are a married man, marrying someone over seven years younger than you: +11%.
4. Do not  more than 8.5 hours a night: +15% (but sleeping less than 4 hours is horrible too).
5. If you are a woman, have a waste less than 35 inches; if you are a man have one less than 40 inches: +25%.
6. Be an optimist: +55%.
7. Sit less than 8 hours a day: +18%.
8. Go to church regularly and do the social stuff involved: +25%.
9. Be a Mormon- men: +6.7%, women: +3.2%.
10. Be rich: +15%.
11. Drink two glasses of red wine a day (and no more): +25%.
12. Don't watch television: -8% for every hour a day consumed.
13. Live in Hawaii (life expectancy 81.3 versus Louisiana with 74.2).
14. Be a woman (outlive men by 5.1 years)
15. Be literate: +50%.

another vision in yoga class

So my shoulder is healed enough to start doing yoga again. I went to the really easy classes yesterday and today and felt a bit ridiculous. I was just so incredibly crappy at everything. This being said, I did have a weird vision during the closing ten minutes of corpse pose today.

I saw this huge volcano spewing what I thought was greasy black smoke across the sky. But when I got closer it turned out that the smoke consisted entirely of alphabet letters rendered in a spidery, Charles Addams type font. It was really repulsive and frightening.

I guess too much of anything is always sublimely repulsive. . . But there is something special about too many letters befouling the atmosphere, the medium in which we reason destroying the medium in which we breath. I mean, I don't want to choke on an existential quantifier or even a zed for that matter.

Paul the Octopus is no snob

Nice essay by Theodor Dalrymple on snobbery HERE. Some money quotes

. . .Knowing the dangers of snobbery, however, is not quite the same as eliminating it from one’s own heart and mind. I admit that, in the inner recesses of my being, I am a fearful snob. For example, I feel nothing but contempt for people for whom sport is important. This is particularly pertinent at the moment, because the greatest sporting event in the world by far, the football (soccer) World Cup, is taking place in South Africa as I write this. There could be no greater snobbery than to feel contempt for the hundreds of millions of people world-wide for whom this event is of consuming interest. . .

. . .I do not detest the game as such, for I accept that it can be played with skill and achieve a kind of beauty, but rather the excessive importance attached to it by millions and hundreds of millions of my fellow beings. Try as I might to expunge the thought from my mind that this enthusiasm is a manifestation of human stupidity, I cannot.

Of course, we are all of us snobbish about something or other; the important thing is to control ourselves and not express our snobbery openly, so that we do not give offence by it. I am therefore always careful to disguise my contempt for enthusiasm for football from enthusiasts. Besides, if I were to reveal it, they might hit me. 

Ha!

real life rock and roll moment in the life of President Obama (watch until the end!)

part of a letter to Andrew Sullivan finally makes it to his page

The first response in THIS POST is an excerpt from my letter.

Last year I tried pretty hard to get Andrew to cover the (successful) struggle to get the American Philosophical Association to enforce its own anti-discrimination policy. I thought he'd be pretty interested because he's linked to stuff from leiterreports before, but it didn't work. The thing is, he gets thousands of e-mails a day so of course there's no reliable way to get through the noise.

real life rock and roll moment in the life of Solomon Maimon

Today I'm reading Solomon Maimon's fascinating autobiography and he relates a great story about what happened after he sent Kant a manuscript for his first book Transcendental Philosophy. Kant wrote him back a fantastically glowing letter full of praise. After repeating some of the letter Maimon writes,

It may easily be imagined how important and agreeable to me was the approbation of this great thinker, and especially this testimony that I had understood him well. For there are some arrogant Kantians, who believe themselves to be sole proprietors of the Critical Philosophy, and therefore dispose of every objection, even though not intended as a refutation, but as a fuller elaboration of this philosophy, by the mere assertion without proof, that the author has failed to understand Kant. Now these gentlemen were no longer in a position to bring this charge against my book, inasmuch, as by the testimony of the founder of the Critical Philosophy himself, I had a better right than they to make use of this argument.

A couple of thoughts: (1) This is like a real life version of that scene in Annie Hall where Woody Allen is irritated by a pompous windbag in front of him who keeps going on about Marshall McLuhan. When he complains to Annie, the guy turns around and arrogantly announces that he teaches a class on McLuhan. Then Woody Allen produces McLuhan in the flesh, who proceeds to take the piss out of the hapless professor. Here Maimon is Woody Allen, Kant McLuhan, and the Kantians of the day the irritating professor in line in front of Maimon. (2) This was kind of a synchronicity. A few days ago in THIS POST I was thinking about various ways to be philosophically obnoxious, and one of the key ones is to take it as a priori that anyone who disagrees with your favorite philosopher therefore misunderstands that philosopher. It's really weird to see how old this very tendency is, that in fact early disciples of Kant employed it. And how nice it is to see that Kant helped disarm it, providing such strong support to some of his earliest and most incisive critics. Can anyone imagine Heidegger or Derrida doing such a thing? I realize that great philosophers can be nasty people, and this is depressing. But it is likewise joyful when great philosophers show genuine humanity. Remember that at this point Maimon was an unknown Polish Jewish autodidact living in poverty in Berlin. For Kant, during the time he was teaching a ton of classes and writing the Third Critique, to read and study Maimon's manuscript and write a public letter (at that point in history it was common for letters to be publicized, cf. the Hume-Rousseau imbroglio) of such powerful praise is really a testament to his humanity.

Maximum RAWK and Roll

Mark and I got interviewed by the completely awesome website Grinding To Valhalla, and its HERE.

This is like the coolest thing ever, because Randolph Carter has also interviewed so many writers that I cherish (e.g. Robin Hobb, Brian Ruckley. . .) Their interviews are on the website too.

We also got to push the D&D and Philosophy anthology that we are going to pitch within the next two weeks.

We're Number Something Less than Nine!

Well the 3quarksdaily finalists to be sent to Dennett were announced (HERE), and my post didn't make the cut. It probably reflects badly on me (pride goes before a destruction, etc.)  that I'm genuinely surprised. I did not expect to ultimately win (there are some very good posts in competition), but did think the post would make it through this round. And I'm a bit bummed Dennett won't be reading it, in part because Zuhandenheit/Vorhandenheit/Dasein are explained in terms of Dennett's design/physical/intentional stances. And I thought that the post was part of a sustained reading group would have counted for something.

Oh well, such is life. Here's the song I always console myself with when facing paper rejections/etc..

I think part of what of hurt us was that the nominated post made lots of reference to Braver's realism related theses without explaining them. All of the theses were explained ad nauseum in the post on Chapter 1 of Braver's book. Everyone taking part in the reading group had been discussing these theses for a month by that point. I did think about putting links in to the earlier explanations, but by the time I thought of that it had already been nominated and I thought changing the post in any way would be cheating.

That might not have helped though. . . If I self-nominate something next year it's going to just be some counterexample such as THIS POST, which is the kind of thing they seem to be looking for.

If I could do it again though, I'd wouldn't change things and have entered the other post. I'm proud of the perverse egalitarianism reading group, and think it will continue to be helpful to reader's of Lee Braver's book.

There's a bigger issue here on how to assess the value of your own works. To me the reading group was just as good as stuff I've gotten published with top presses. . . But even in those cases, sometimes something that seems incidental to me gets published immediately, whereas something more important (deeper, though just as clear) may go through six or seven rejections before settling somewhere. There's absolutely no way to predict it.

You have to somehow be humble and completely open to revising based on criticism while still believing in what you are doing. If you can't combine both of these you'll not be able to get back up (AC/DC helps too).

[P.S. On re-examining the list, I realize I have no idea what they were looking for. I'm scandalized that the post on Priest's concept of time didn't make the cut either. Not to rip on any of the finalists, but Ben Burgis' post is probably the best of the bunch. That it didn't advance makes me think less of the contest, but also maes me feel much better about getting weeded out myself. I'm in good company.]

Cool Roy Cook Triumph

My old friend Roy Cook is now one of the less than 20 American officially recognized Lego Ambassadors. His work is amazing. HERE are photos of two huge sculptures of Minnesota landmarks, and HERE is a page with some of the other stuff, including pointillist murals (he's a really good philosopher with logic superpowers too).

me getting distracted while attempting to pose major fish art breakthroughs

I know that our ancestors have been doing this for millions of years, but it still seems miraculous to me that there is a baby in there.  If all goes well, two months from now he'll be on the outside.

Best Fishes

My normal medium is cod, but due to the season I had to settle for this guy.

the last days of generation X

During my first miserable years of graduate school in Columbus, Ohio I would sometimes visit old friends and family in Austin, Texas. 

On one such visit I got dragged along to a party by my college friend Ira.  The house was really depressing, everything covered in a layer of cigarette dust and dirt: shag carpets and linoleum in your field of vision no matter where you looked.  The keg of Shiner Bock (which had already entered its post Corona buyout slide) was somehow dripping on the yellow and lime green kitchen floor, creating a muddy puddle that slowly expanded during the course of the party.  A filthy dog would periodically walk over and lick at the mud.  The only furniture in the house was a T.V. on a milk crate and some mattresses in the denizens' bedroom.  The fifteen or so people in the party just sat around on the floor and smoked cigarettes. 

The smoke was so bad that it made me think of those old Viking longhouses with the hearth traversing the center of the whole house.  It must have really sucked to be in one of those places with all the smoke.  Viking legend has it that it was acceptable during fits of depression to "live in the ashes," which involved burying oneself in the three foot high piles of ash on each side of the fire and sneaking out to steal food and drink periodically.  According to New Age writer Robert Bly (or was it Joseph Conrad?), Leif Erikson supposedly did this for two or three years prior to washing himself off and discovering the new world.

I guarantee you that nobody at that party went on to discover a new world.

We were all three or four years out of college, at the point where the bad diet and slacker lifestyle finally started to rob a generation of their youthful looks.  Through the cloud of smoke I noticed how everyone's skin tone went from blanched to greenish, and how we all looked puffy, somehow both overweight and undernourished.  It was technically a "party" I guess, but nobody was festive, and the conversation drowned in unclever attempts at ironic distance.

Even worse, I'd just reached the point in my life where I'd already heard a lot of what many people had to say, and didn't quite know how to deal with that.  Going to cafes and eavesdropping or getting into conversations with new people had just begun to lose its charm.  So I sat there on ash soaked carpet and drank my beer, thinking dark thoughts.

Between sips, it occurred to me that the functional organization of groups maybe foisted personalities on people, sort of like how in war movies there's always the wise-cracking tough guy Sargent, the earnest and scared brainy kid, a couple of ethnic stereotypes, etc. . .  The narrative of a war movie seems to demand this.  I started then to worry if really life was the same way.  So let's say you got in a new group of friends who hadn't yet filled the "funny guy" spot, and because of that it's your job to be the funny guy, even if you aren't really funny.  Maybe this was why you can often observe groups of friends laughing at somebody's unfunny jokes?

While pondering this, one of Ira's friends introduced me to a slightly overweight bearded person who plopped down next to me.  Ira's friend said something like, "You'll like Bill, he's an intellectual like you."  This women didn't know I was in graduate school.  I think for her "intellectual" meant someone who wasn't a meathead (and Kurt Cobain's true cross was looking out in the audience and realizing he was performing for the same kind of meatheads that beat him mercilessly when he was a child in school, just that some of these meatheads now listened to the Red Hot Chili Peppers and wore flannel shirts).

Bill's skin was kind of waxy and the sweat rolled off of him.  He was so drunk he could barely speak.  In between periodic bouts of drooling, he talked about himself.  The first thing he said was "My life is Kafkaesque."  I responded flippantly (and unfunnily), "Dude, you've got an apple stuck under your right wing on your back," and he just stared at me through bleary eyes.  I wanted to ask him how he knew his life was Kafkaesque without him having read any Kafka, but I'm actually too polite to do stuff like that.  After more drooling he said (very slowly), "I work at Burlington Coat Factory , I help build the new coat factories," and began crying.  I said, "Whattaya crying about?  That's a good job.  Hey!  Hey!  People need coats."  But he kept crying and mumbling, and my praise of outerwear garments didn't seem to help much. Finally he snuffled in and solemnly proclaimed, "I should write a book." 

This mawkish display went on for about fifteen minutes and there was nothing I could do to cheer him up.  He was just too drunk and pathetic.  Plus the crying I think was part of his view of himself as a tortured genius forced to labor beneath himself.

When my friend Ira came over, Bill started mumbling incoherent, yet loud, things about Plato.  "Oh crap" I thought.  Ira is such a sweet person (he will help anyone with anything) that I thought we'd be stuck there all night listening to the drunk windbag.   But as soon as the guy mentioned Plato, Ira said, "Dude, you're full of s**t and you don't know what you're talking about; just sit there and shut up while we leave."  And we did.  We went and then got some really good Mexican food. 

Ira's curse was the last sentence of the last generation X/slacker party I attended.  I haven't even been to a party with a keg of beer (this was over a decade ago) since then.  Nor do I want to.  Saint Paul was pretty much right about kid stuff being for kids and grownup stuff being for grownups.  Grownup stuff is actually a lot more fun and rewarding.  So is Mexican food.

the last time I went for a walk without first shaving

Since being diagnosed with hypertension, I've changed a lot of things in my life for the better.  No caffeine, a lot less alcohol, more olive oil, and a lot more exercise.  One of the things I do for exercise is to try to walk a lot.  Sometimes this leads to problems.

A few Thanksgivings ago I woke up early and decided to take a walk to the Mississippi River levee in downtown Baton Rouge, less than a mile from where I live.  It's really pretty down there early in the morning and it's also a good chance to check out all of the neat construction in downtown Baton Rouge.

As I walked along Third Street an old car with the name of a church painted on its side (it was one of those off-brand churches with a name like "New Covenant Fellowship" or something) slowed alongside me.  The driver was a woman who had that kind of smile only worn by evangelicals and people who take massive doses of protease re-uptake inhibitors.  Thinking she wanted directions somewhere, I ambled over to the car.

She said, "Well hello there, Sir!  The Breakfast is just down the street!"

I said something like, "Huh?"

As I leaned down she said, "Just right down third street and keep going straight.  You'll see the sign."  Then she took off.

During my four block trek along Third Street, two other cars did the same thing, all driven by people with the weird Prozac/evangelical grins urging me in the direction of the convention center.  I felt like I was in a zombie movie.

So, in my sadly predictable Milgramistic way, I shuffled to the convention center to see what was going on.   Once there I was confronted by a long line of bearded men, half of them wearing fatigues, and a couple of women.  The ammonia reek of the dried urine saturating many of their clothes was nauseating.  I still didn't understand what the heck was going on until I finally noticed a sign that said, "Line for Free Thanksgiving Breakfast Starts Here."  The gathered bums, so bad at everything else in their mentally ill and booze and drug saturated lives, were surprisingly good at standing in line for a free breakfast.  This really amazed me, and I thought that if these people were so good at lining up, maybe they wouldn't stay homeless forever.  Unfortunately, I quickly learned that, like so much else in their lives, the line was not in fact the result of their innate disposition to self-restraint.

My first thought was, "Oh, those women thought I was going to volunteer to help with the breakfast."  Unfortunately, this was shattered when one of the smiling, sweater bedecked, Christians came up to me and said, "Sir, the back of the line is over there.  If you just wait there we'll start letting people in soon." 

I tried to explain that I was just going for a walk, but the  woman was kind of nervous from dealing with so many bums,  and she just kept telling me that I needed to go to the back of the line.  Finally, a police officer walked over and told me I needed to "move on, immediately."  Though thoroughly cowed by the police officer and evangelical Christian, the bums still had it in them to laugh at me as I wandered off.

my first Henry Rollins story, featuring the only fistfight I won

think the last time I went to see live music was a year ago when Weird Al Yankovic played downtown.  I just have almost no motivation to see most bands today.  Reasons: (1) I don't want to add to my hearing loss, (2) I always get a sort of hangover from cigarette smoke inhalation the next morning, (3) bands start really late in Baton Rouge, and (4) I find the mating rituals of human beings in their early twenties to be really depressing, and I don't enjoy witnessing their early stages in bars.

In college I saw a pretty good amount of live music, and it was at once such concert that I actually won a fistfight.  Henry Rollins was touring to support his second solo album, I think called "Lifetime."  This was I think probably right before the patina of true rock and roll (from his time as Black Flag's lead singer) had worn off him, and when you could also still see him in a tiny bar.  Even though I don't really like any of his music from "The End of Silence" onwards, and am pretty equivocal about his other creative endeavors (with the exception of the good works he's done for Hubert Selby Junior, for which Mr. Rollins gets a place in heaven) the concert was phenomenal.

Unfortunately, the tiny club I saw him at (then called "The Cannibal Club" in Austin) featured "slam dancing" which is when stupid kids run around in spastic circles and bang into each other.  Although I didn't partake in the dancing, a drunk skinhead slammed into me and tripped.  I didn't think much of it and turned around. 

Here's where I got very lucky.  Skinheads both in Britain and the U.S. are really fond of traveling in groups and assaulting people as a pack.  This skinhead was solo that evening and (even more lucky for me) very, very drunk.  I felt this pop on the side of my head, which caused my glasses to careen into the mosh pit, only to be crushed under a hundred pairs of combat boots and Dr. Martin's.  I turned around and by squinting could make out the light shining off of the jerk's bald head.  My night vision is so bad without glasses that I didn't see him swing again though.  But the gods of the rock and roll pantheon were with me.  His fist missed my head and the momentum pulled him forward onto the concrete floor, on which he caught himself with his face.   He just lay there in an expanding pool of blood coming out of his very broken nose.

Security grabbed my arms and escorted me out.  Once we got outside they bummed me a cigarette and one of them said, "Finally someone took that a**hole Scuff down.  Man, he had it coming."  I didn't have the heart to tell them that it was really the slippery floor of the club combined with "Scuff's" drunkenness and low I.Q. that "took him down."  I just enjoyed that brief and to me genuinely alien moment of male camaraderie and then never went to that club again. 

one way Jesus can help you

Last year when Emily and I were crossing the street in our neighborhood a car came very close to running into us.  The car was some kind of old Ford (does Ford still make cars, or is it all "light trucks" now?) and the driver was a dowdy, middle aged African American woman.  Emily and I had been crossing at a corner that had a stop sign.  If the woman hadn't slammed on the breaks to avoid hitting us, she would have sped through the intersection without stopping for the sign.

I was standing in the middle of the road having one of those freeze reactions that prey animals (and humans were prey animals long before they were predators) have evolved as a response to predators who attack moving things.  As my adrenalin calmed down a little bit I noticed the driver was waving her hands and screaming. 

Emily and I moved out of her car's way, but the woman just kept screaming.  You couldn't hear what she was saying because her windows were closed.  When I finally figured that she was mad at us for having the temerity to be on foot and in her way, I pointed at the stop sign.  At that point she threw her door open and ran out of the car.

Uh oh, Jerry Springer time, except without the bodyguards to separate us.  The woman was literally snarling and she kept screaming things like, "Don't tell me you didn't see me coming."  Of course, my response was to say, "I really didn't see you coming" (we really didn't).

Emily remained calm and said, "The sign says 'stop.'  It's not optional.  You have to stop, whether pedestrians are in the street or not."

This went on, and I finally said, "Hey, don't be mad."

She was briefly taken aback, silent for a moment, before again snarling, "You give me one god-damned reason why I shouldn't be mad?"

Her animosity was so misdirected, and I'm such a natural pedant, that I was going to attempt to explain to her why it was in fact Emily and I that should be mad, with the driver apologizing to us.  I knew that would be futile though, so I tried to think of other reasons not to be consumed with anger.  I opened my mouth, not knowing how I was going to answer her, and what came out was "Because Jesus loves you."  She paused, stepping back.  I smiled and held open my arms in case she wanted a hug, raising my eyebrows and nodding my head in encouragement.

She screamed, "Oh f**k this!" waddled back to her Ford and drove away.